no longer a happy place, just a dark hole that my feelings go to. a place where i can find my words that i can never say.

written for us
expressed by me
thoughts about him (and always about us)

10th March 2011

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oh hey, have you ever considered that i might actually love you?

yes, its true. i love you and am still in love with you. i cant prove it, but i can say it and mean it. so when you ask me why i cant yell at you or be mad at you, think about this:

i cant curse your name, i cant ignore you. i cant yell at you for hours, i cant tell you i hate you, i cant say hateful things to you. i care about your feelings. many things were my fault, and i will and am taking full blame for it. but if you do something wrong from now on, i can no longer hold a grudge against you because i too have done the same thing. maybe not sex, but other things.

so yes hai, i do love you. but no, i cant be in a relationship with you anymore.